Lost

I've been told that I'm a cool/chill individual. The reason for this I believe is the fact that I basically can get along with anyone in any situation. I consider myself a social chameleon. On any given day you can observe 4 different Me's. These 4 sects include family, friends, work & relationship. In 1 day I can experience 1 or all 4. Some would take this as a gift not knowing the work that goes into this feat.

In keeping all sects separate you might lose your true self. Most times these separations are easily managed since some sects don't mix. In a perfect utopia I would want all sects to interact with each other for example: relationship should merge with friends & family. But what happens when issue arise within sects that can not be discussed with others. Family issues should not be discussed with work individuals and most relationship issue should be handled in house.

How can your true self be realized if throughout the day your not the same or allowed to express yourself freely across lines? Those who know me know I'm all about openness & honesty. I also try to make everyone happy which is my nature as a Cancer man. The problem arises when individuals within sects are naturally quiet, seem emotionless or choose to close themselves off and allow issues to fade (but still fester within & explode at a later time). So open individual has issue with closed person in one group but can not express amongst others. This leads to uneasiness, self doubt, loss of confidence & eventually unhappiness. These issues I can only handle alone until that party finds in themselves to open up. So while I wait I become closed off & pretend things are fine. When things are good I try to extend that positivity by not expressing the issue that might breed negativity.

One day we will resolve but til then I can not truly be honest within sects & bring the happiness each one deserves. I can not be who you need me to be, until I truly know who I am...